make peace, lOve, and change

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love.

It will not lead you astray.

– Jalaluddin Rumi

In May of 2012, just three months into this illness, I decided I would let my hair grow until I was well. I was so sick at the time that getting myself to the salon wasn’t even an option, but making that declaration gave me a little sense of control, which I badly needed at the time.

While I was writing last month’s nO push zOne blog post, I made another declaration. I consciously made an intention that “I will do whatever it takes for me to get well”. Now, you’re likely thinking, “Weren’t you already doing that? And if you weren’t, why the hell not?!”

You see, I know that setting intentions work. Big time. They alert the universe that you are really ready for a change, and it responds by setting in motion things and events to create the opportunity for that change. Amazing, right!? Well, the scary part is, the universe needs us to work in partnership with it, and there is no way to know exactly what will be required of us once the ball gets rolling.

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For example, in October of 2000, I stood in the Pacific Ocean off the coast of Kauai feeling so moved and transformed by the beauty, that I found myself declaring to the universe that I was ready to be “opened up” and healed. Three months later I found myself in emergency surgery in Miami for the first of three surgeries for cervical cancer. Believe me, this was NOT the “opened up” scenario I had in mind. In the end though, it saved not only my physical health, but my marriage, sanity and happiness as well. So, yes, miss wise, powerful and creative universe, I got just what I wanted, but it’s all those steps in between that sometimes scare the hell out of me.

So last month, after four years on this particular journey, feeling really ready to be done with it all, I once again summoned my courage and jumped off the so-called perverbial cliff, and screamed “uncle” into the wind.

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To make sure the universe knew I was serious about doing whatever it takes to get well, I followed through on the plan to cut my hair. It was scary, empowering and really quite freeing. Since then, almost every day, my meditations have been deeper, my decisions more important, and my body stronger. I’m ever so grateful to the Great Change Agent who has responded to my screams into the wind. I know there are more opportunities for change to come. And I will keep saying yes.

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So, my dear friends, I’m encouraging you to live the life that lights you up. It requires tough decisions, finding a way to not care about what other people think of you (yup, this might be a tough one), saying no even when it scares you, and increasing your capacity to tolerate, feel, and transform your emotions (yes, even anger and grief) into the most amazing energy ever. And you might just discover a whole new level of happy, too.

"happy, happy, happy"

“happy, happy, happy”

We are all “lit up” by different things. Take the time to find out what your unique combination might be, and:

Claim your truth.

Follow your intuition.

Don’t judge yourself, or others.

And live the life you were meant to live.

Be brave. Be happy. Be true.

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lOve,

vickiO

 

19 comments

  1. Angie

    Vicki, I am so happy for you. You are a big light in my life. Stay strong and feeling well.
    I loved the long hair also your short.
    Love ya, Angie

    • vickioart

      Dearest Angie❤️ Your support and encouragement means the world to me. Thank you for being such a positive, strong and loving force in the world. So grateful for you dear friend. Love, Vicki

  2. Lahna Chaffee

    I so admire your attitude & fortitude. I am so inspired by your message that I will now set my intention to be well.

    Lotsa love & hugs, Lahna

      • vickioart

        Hi Rosemary❣ Thank you so much for your wonderful comments, and for taking the time to read my post. Sending my love to you, and hope you are enjoying the beautiful spring in CA. Much love, Vicki

    • vickioart

      Dear Lahna🌻 Sending you wellness, ease and a whole lotta self-acceptance and love. This is no easy road, but finding a way to trust each step is so helpful. May you feel supported by the universe as it moves to assist you. Peace to you❤️ Vicki

    • vickioart

      Hi Lahna, The doctor I have been seeing since last May has really helped me on my path to wellness. It has been a slow increase in my energy since then, and has been key to me getting “better”. If you are interested in his name and information, please email at vickioart@cox.net Hugs, Vicki

  3. Lisa M

    I’ve always struggled with those who veer away from change saying ‘…if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it!’ Instead of aspiring to the notion that ‘change is good’! Change is growth!
    Vicki, your smile has always been infectious, but now with your short hair it beams even brighter!! Love it!

    • vickioart

      Thanks so much, Lisa❤️ For some reason I’ve always been a “growth & change girl”. It sure makes life interesting, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Thank you for being part of my G&C tribe, because it’s just not possible to do it on my own! Smiling over here😊

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